The Whispered Roar
— Shawna Barnes

Mornings and I have an understanding: If I allow myself the time I need to ease into the day, things go relatively smoothly. If I don’t? Let’s just say it’s a recipe for disaster. I know myself well enough to acknowledge that because of my myasthenia gravis (MG), I…

This week, I turn 41. Some days, I’ll catch my reflection in the mirror and feel a deep sense of pride in the person looking back at me. I’ll see the strength I’ve built, the lessons I’ve learned, and the resilience that has carried me through these 41 years. Then…

Pride. This short noun has many definitions, depending on its use. I’ve found two primary meanings repeatedly in various memes and articles online: a feeling of deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one’s own achievements, the achievements of those with whom one is closely associated, or from qualities or possessions that…

Living with a chronic illness like myasthenia gravis (MG) is no walk in the park. Sometimes I roll. Some days, just getting out of bed feels like a herculean task worthy of a medal. Yet among the challenges that come with living with MG, I’ve discovered some unexpected…

I can’t even begin to count the number of times I’ve seen some version of the following statement in online forums: “I hurt, but my doctors all tell me that pain isn’t a symptom of myasthenia gravis (MG). Does anyone else have pain?” I see it in support groups,…

Blue used to be my favorite color. After I was diagnosed with myasthenia gravis (MG), I found myself being drawn more and more to the darker shades of teal. A beautiful blend of blue and green, teal holds a special place in the hearts of many,…

There’s no denying it: Living with myasthenia gravis (MG) can make a person feel insane. One minute I’m celebrating a new physical milestone achieved, and the next I’m lamenting and grieving how much I lost when I got sick. It’s these constant emotional ups and downs that make…

Six months can feel like forever. Using an elimination diet to detect food sensitivities can seem to last forever. Many such diets are restrictive at the start, which makes them difficult to stick with for long periods of time. But that’s sort of the point. In May, I started…

Close your eyes and imagine that you’re in a diving suit, swimming in a warm and comfortable lagoon. You find yourself drawn into the depths of the beautiful teal water by a siren. At first you don’t realize how far you are from the surface; you’re too enamored by the…

Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat when you travel? Before I got sick during my deployment to Iraq (2009-2010), I used to love to travel. I never had to give much thought to flying. I always went with the cheapest ticket or the best deal.

It happened again. I received this comment, intended as a compliment, I think: “I don’t know how you do it.” It was made by a friend of mine who stopped by my business, The Nook, where I said I’d joined the board for a biathlon. I threw my name…

Note: This column describes the author’s own experiences with prednisone. Not everyone will have the same response to treatment. Consult your doctor before starting or stopping a therapy. Do you like roller coasters? I used to — until my life became an emotional roller coaster fueled by health challenges…