The parts of MG people don’t see when they look at me
I wish people understood the invisible work it takes me to move through the day
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People think myasthenia gravis (MG) is about symptoms you can point to, but the truth is, most of it happens under the surface. I move through every day doing quiet calculations that no one else notices, and those calculations shape everything from how long I stand to whether I can keep a conversation going. I don’t need pity, and I don’t need a pep talk. I need folks to understand that what looks simple for them can cost me the rest of my day. That’s the reality of a body with shifting rules.
Before I say yes to anything, I’m already running the numbers in my head. I’m thinking about how much energy it will take, what I’ll have to give up later, and whether the crash will be worth it. I wish MG fatigue could always be solved by a nap or a cup of coffee. It’s a hard stop, the kind that hits without warning and doesn’t care what I had planned.
When I say I’m tired, I’m telling you my muscles are clocking out, and if I don’t respect that, I’ll pay for it with interest. I know it can be confusing when I look fine one minute and have to sit down the next. MG usually doesn’t give a warning light. Thankfully, I’m pretty in tune with my body, so I know when it’s telling me something. When my right eyelid starts drooping, I know my body is telling me that if I don’t adjust my activity level pronto, I’m not going to like what happens next.
Thanks to the dynamic nature of MG, I’ve had to accept that I’m the “flaky friend” and let everyone know that I’ll always RSVP “maybe” to an event or gathering. I won’t know until the day of the activity whether I’ll be able to attend. And even that can change, leading to last-minute cancellations. It’s not for a lack of desire to go do something, but rather my body changing the rules mid‑game.
There’s also the emotional weight of this constant unpredictability. I never know which version of my body I’m waking up in, and that uncertainty shapes how I move through the world. It’s not fear or avoidance. It’s the exhaustion of having to adapt over and over again. When you understand that, you understand why I guard my energy the way I do. It’s not about avoiding life, it’s about staying in it and doing my damndest to live my best possible life.
What support actually looks like
Support isn’t hovering or treating me like I’m fragile. It’s listening when I tell you what I need and not arguing with me about my own limits. It’s trusting that I know my body better than anyone else in the room. You don’t have to fix anything or turn every moment into a wellness check. What helps most is flexibility, kindness, and the ability to roll with changes without making it weird.
If plans shift, let them shift. If I say I’m done for the day, believe me. If I need space, give it without taking it as rejection. MG is unpredictable, but your response doesn’t have to be. When you stay steady, it makes the whole situation easier to navigate. It tells me I don’t have to perform strength I don’t have just to keep the peace.
The truth is simple: I’m not asking anyone to understand every detail of MG. I’m asking folks to understand that the invisible parts are real, constant, and demanding. I’m asking for people to trust that when I say I’m at my limit, I mean it. I’m asking for compassion that isn’t based on what you can see, but on what I’ve told you.
Awareness campaigns love to focus on facts and symptoms, but facts alone don’t build connection. Understanding does. When you see the invisible work I’m doing just to move through a day, it becomes easier to meet me where I am instead of where you wish I could be. That’s where real empathy starts: not with ribbons or slogans, but with honest, human connection.
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Anam
Hi Shawna! Thank you for writing this fantastic piece. I’ve had MG since I was born and am now 30 years old. I’ve been noticing a difference in my fatigue and weakness increasing as compared to when I was younger which has been a challenge. However, I’ve been done apologizing for my boundaries and telling people what I need. If I need a break or can’t make it to a plan, I no longer apologize. The world needs to be more accommodating and open to learning about conditions they are not aware versus making assumptions. From one warrior to another, thank you!!
Shawna Barnes
You are so very welcome Anam! I am glad you are respecting and enforcing your own boundaries to protect your energy and wellness. Keep on keeping on and living your best life one moment at a time.
Louise Tremblay Matchett
Thank you for writing this. It is short but captures everything that others do not see at all by looking at you. I am hoping you won’t mind if I send a copy to my family members who are very supportive but like most others, have no real way to understand what it feels like trying to live daily like this.
Shawna Barnes
Not at all Louise! That's why I write, to help people see and understand what our life is like. I hope you share it far and wide so you can help people try to understand. I hope it helps. XX
Rosana Taddei
I could use help about how to talk with my health care provider so he takes me seriously when I tell them my legs and arms feel like I’m carrying a bag of concrete when I move them. I can’t stand for more than a few minutes without having to seat down. I use a shoer chair because standing on nder the shower head is too difficult. I still don’t have a diagnosis because the conversation always go s back to my mental health. I’m a strong, smart 68 years old and I know my own body. Please! Help
Mary Ann
Please don’t give up. If you feel that, there’s something up with your body that’s not quite right then you most likely are indeed quite right. Remember, you are hiring your clinicians they arethere to help you. If they make you feel at all uncomfortable that it’s time to change don’t think twice don’t look back. Just keep moving forward until you find the right person. I was diagnosed with generalized SN myasthenia gravis 13 years ago when hospitalized was considered in my senior crisis, I was going into respiratory failure. I had been furniture walking hit me suddenly I was busy with life and denying it until that point she was a very scary day myself my husband and children. Fortunately, I had a neurologist that treated me accordingly and in hindsight, I can say properly because after five years of receiving treatment, I moved to another state. My insurance company also changed. The neurologist I’ve seen I believe look at me like I’m a hypochondriac or is all in my head in spite of my EMG being abnormal. My insurance company will not cover IVIG because I am sero negative. It’s been seven years since I’ve been treated and as much as I try to pretend it’s not there. I am now starting to show the manifestations at least before like others say it was like an invisible disease. I have suffered many falls. I also have crippling rheumatoid arthritis and scoliosis which has branded me with eight spine surgeries, fusing my entire spine so now I walk crippled. If I allow it to my self-esteem can plummet, but I know the person I am and that person isn’t a label, especially one that denotes
Disease and illness. So please be true to yourself love yourself be kind to yourself and seek the Care you must get even if you have to go to a tertiary center. We come in all sorts. How can our blood test or any lab test all fit under the same parameters? We are different that way to find someone who thinks outside the box.