No one will ever fully understand what you go through, but I am pretty sure you have figured that out already. People are going to surprise you in the best and worst of ways, but you will grow from it.
Unfortunately, you have been dealt a poor hand of health — you have to deal with it now. There is no shame in mourning; it is a big loss, but bigger things await you. Bigger things are changing inside of you. You are going to be fine, I promise.
You cannot protect your loved ones from what is happening; do not waste your energy on trying to save them some inconvenience. If they love you, helping you will not turn you into as big of a burden as you feel you have become. You should swallow your pride and allow them to help you, at least now and then. Asking for or accepting help does not make you weak, it makes you human. You are still very much human underneath all of the medical stuff you have going on. You are allowed to be human.
There are very few things self-centered people will ever understand about other people. It is not your responsibility to teach people how to be decent. Yes, your existence has placed them in a situation unknown to most, but that is not your fault. You should guide them in situations that are very overwhelming, of course, but good manners are not something you are forced to teach anyone just because you are sick now. Everyone should take responsibility for themselves; that is what being a grown-up is all about. You are a person before you are sick. It’s important to remind yourself of that.
Do not mess around with your medication. You have to take responsibility for your health now. There are certain things your body is messing up with, and it has become your responsibility to fulfill those functions by taking your medication. Do not take this responsibility lightly, because you do not want to learn the hard way why your medication is so important. Take responsibility for yourself, even if you feel you are too young for these things. This is your life now, so accept the responsibility, and you might flourish. There are worse things than gaining weight due to a medication, such as not breathing. Your life is important not only to you but also to others.
You are allowed to feel angry, sad, annoyed, and hopeless. You do not have to be ashamed of feeling these things. If you speak to any other chronically ill person, you will soon learn that what you feel is perfectly normal. You are not going crazy. You are not losing who you are. Your life is changing, and if you do not adapt, you will always feel lost or stuck between two worlds. Start by taking baby steps. There is no rush. But you will feel much better as soon as you start the process. No one likes being a novice at anything, especially at their own life.
You are not weak just because your muscles are. Your life has taken a different turn than most. But the beauty that you will experience from the amazing people who will enter your life is unimaginable. You will get to see exactly what it feels like to have your faith in humanity restored, thanks to your loved ones. I have had tears in my eyes from messages people have sent me from all around the world. Distance means nothing when someone is really interested in your well-being. That goes both ways, so remember not to get too lost in the maze of your health and completely neglect your friends. Do not forget to thank these people. You will soon learn that they are few and far between, so realize their worth as soon as possible.
Most importantly, you will be fine. Remember, life is beautiful. Never stop fighting.
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